下一站，坚强~

心情真的好像风，
随它来去自如。。。
心里闷了好久。。
感觉都活在另一个空间，
不知道该怎么和人沟通。
最近都好喘，
心里好闷，
好想不再是自己，
好想记忆消失。。。
每天醒来好希望自己又能再度呼吸顺畅。
大声地笑着对自己说：
我今天又长大了，
别在沦陷在过去。

姐，别担心我。。
我会好好的。。。
咪，别担心我。
我不会让脆弱打败。
给我一些时间，
我会站在你们笑着对你们说：
我好了，我过的好快乐！
其实我都懂，
我知道~
坚强曾经是我的朋友，
可是现在它很遥远。。。
我觉得好吃力，
一直追，一直寻找。。。
我知道我总有一天能找到你。

眼泪别在找我了，
我不适合你。
擦干了你就走吧~
我不想你再黏着我。。
我不再伤心，
我不会堕落。。。
再见了~
一切一切我都送走。。。
不再回忆~

01012010~

2010 Resolution~

Well, 2009 has finally come to an end.
Why I use finally instead of other words?
It's not bcoz 2009 is not a gud fortune year 4 me.
I'm ready heading 2 a better future.
A year with a new me~
Sayonara, 2009.
No matter how sad I am,
I will send u away.
Bye...

As usual ,
New year signify a new beginning.
I must set up some new year resolution,
No matter I can achieve it or not.

Ehem ehem!

What I should maintain :

1. Believe what i can do.
2. Treat everyone as family.
3. Be optimistic.
4. Stay as simple as I can.
5. Unconditional loves to family.
6. Loves Stitch =p
7. Happy-Go-Lucky
8. Never expect too much from others.
9. Stay as low profile as possible.

What I must do :

1. Study from de 1st day of semester 2.
2. Make sure i can finish every assignment on de day itself.
3. Never prolong works.
4. Never complain workload, just do it with my very best.
5. Stay healthy n fit everyday by taking nutritious foods n regular exercise.
6. Believe in miracles.
7. See things in a broad n positive way.
8. Be brave.
9. Able to sleep alone with de lamp off.
10. Categorised n do things according to its priority.

Well well well.. I guess dat's more 2be done. Wishing my family n frenz a meaningful year ahead.

Dun worry, be happy~ =)

All these are my meals during dis prolong holidays~
Some are mom's home cooking, some are unhealthy foods. =p
Bad new is I've gain 0.5kg. =.=

Christmas~

My christmas dis year is family bbq grill n steamboat.
Family gathering~
Merry X'mas everybody! =)
hope u guys enjoy de day~

Simple day after all~ Cheers! ^^

I can't help it.......

I admit~
I am scared to be alone.
I always scared to be alone.
2day I'm alone again.
Roommate went back 2days ago.
A day is long like a year~
Every second is damn hard 2 pass~
Help!
I don't want to be alone~
I'm depressed.
Nobody is at home.
No matter how loud de music is playing,
Or how loud de drama series is playing,
I'm still scared ...
Can somebody talk to me?
It's so quiet now.
I can't help not 2 cry.
I hate crying.
I hate de weak side of myself.
When I listen to her voice n listen to his voice,
My tears still dropping unstoppably.
But I hide it ,
I don't really want them 2 know that I'm weak~
Though I really am ,
And I always are~
Why I'm so coward ?
Why I can't stay alone just for a few days ?
Can somebody tell me why ?
I always telling myself must grow up ,
Can't be too dependent~
But I failed~
I FAILED ...
How 2 cease de feeling of scary ?
How 2 comfort myself dun be depressed ?
How 2 stay a night without anybody talking to me ?
I know I'm not independent.
But I really wanna get rid of dis shortcoming.
I really want to ...
Woke up almost 5 times when I slept.
Sense of security is fading away~
I can't help it.
Can't concentrate in studies at all,
I can't help it.
Trying not 2 disturb anybody,
I can't help it.
I really miss u now~
I can't help it ..............

能不能让泪水停止？

27 Nov - 30 Nov '09 Happiness is just that simple

27 Nov '09

Early in de morning I'm forced 2wake up due to Solat subur by Muslim. =.="
I wish 2sleep but I can't. *angry*
Dragging my "unconscious" body into de car n off we go to BP.
All de way long, i tried 2open my eyes big enuf so da jie won't feel bored in dis 3hrs journey.
Finally, we took a rest n had our lunch at Ayer Keroh.
After took some sips of coffee, Oh my spirit comes back! XD
Enjoy seeing de scenery outside- The Evergreen =)
At last, we are homed~
Warm welcomed by Malcolm & his family.
My Brownie is getting more adorable now.
Luv her luv her...
Joyce comes back too.
So 2day is our family outing.
Went kaikai (jalan2) n tk dine 2gether.
Oh life, Oh life! Happiness is just dat simple.

28 Nov '09

Shopping with family.
Another simple yet enjoyable day 2me.
Whole day yao che hor with dem.
Having buffet with da jie, pappy n mummy~
Joyce gotta go back 2day.
Just spent a day with her.Sigh~

29 Nov '09

Sunday~ Yes! Sunday. 2day is Sunday!
Gonna follow da jie back KL since she's driving alone.
Pappy will nvr stop worrying about her.
So mummy n I accompanied her back.
Massive traffic jam on highway.
Sien arh~
We thought of de last resort- hv a stay at cousin's hse at Seremban.
The way to seremban still jam..jam jam..
But is not peanut butter. *lame jokes learnt from Prof. Kang* =p
3hrs juz to reach seremban OMG!
However, being able 2 see vivian n sinny has win it all hehe.
Dey r oways indulging themselves in works.
Went 2 a famous restaurant in Seremban 2tk our dine.
Yummy yummy~
I guess I'd gain myself at least 2kg dis month. T_T
But thinking of de mouth-watering foods made me 4get about those unnecessary things.
Unquenchable desire in foods has killed me! Haha...

30 Nov '09

Another day in Seremban~
2day we gotta go back BP by bus.
Bought 2 Transnational bus tickets.
De driver is sucks man...
When I asked him izit de same company as SKS,
Then he said "U tengok kan bawah ade tulis, jgn nampak saje tulisan besar."
=.=" Why shud I deserve dis ill treatment from him?
I asked him politely.
Then I told mummy,
There are 2types of ppl in dis world.
De 1st type is though dey r not wealthy,dey r humble
So I respect them.
But de 2nd type is no matter how wealthy or powerful dey r,
Dey r arrogant, dey r rude to ppl,
Dey r still rubbish 2 me.
It's de way we think dat resulting in our action.
It shapes our temperament.
I hope u can understand.
Well, things come around goes around.