I'm sorry, Stitch Paradise. Abandon u for so long...
I can't find a suitable mood to drop a word or two here recently.
Since ah gong passed away.
Haihz....
I nvr expect it to happen.
I saw him last 2 weeks when visiting ah ma.
He still talked to me.
He asked about my future plan,
And hope I can further my studies as much as I could.
Saturday I still worked happily.
But when I reached home,
Phone rang~
And once I saw ah ma's hse number,
I know something bad must had happen.
And out of my expectation.
She said ah gong fall down.
Her words were calm n still.
I know what had happen.
Uncle Hong n Aunt rushed back home.
But everything was too late.
I can't sleep well the whole nite.
I regret...
I regret I didn't follow papa n mummy.
5 days funeral ritual had past.
Tiring...
We have to accept what ady happened.
Chia n uncle pray for him everyday.
Rest in peace,ah gong~
Dun worry about us.

She came...
She saw me n my first respond is to paddle off.
She kept following me...
She asked me 2 stay there n dun move.
But I was too scare..
I know I've hurt her feelings.
I'm surprise she's still willing 2come n look for me 2day.
I heard they said she havent sleep for whole day.
She came here purposely 2 give back de thing.
I dunwan 2take it though she forced me 2 do so.
At last, she left...
Phew~such a heart palpitation I'd gone through.
Well, at least my burden is being reduced.
I'm ok now~ =)

I quarrel with her. My most doted n pampered gal...
Coz I'm oways de type dat too shy 2accept others help.
She juz 1na help. I know, I really understand.
But I juz can't get used to it.
When she said " Fine fine!!! U dun hv 2apologise. Is my fault for bothering u!"
I was bleeding...
I was sad due to her words.
I know a friendship won't end like dis, not 2day.
But somehow I have a sense dat she'll do dat.
Amitabha plz help me...
Let her understand wat I have told her.
Make her know dat I'm not stubborn, I have my own reason.
My own reason.....

Celebrated my 20-year-old bfday yesterday nite. 20 means alot to me.... 20 means I'm no longer a daddy's little gal. 20 means I have 2be more mature in thinking n attitude. 20 means I dun have 2pretend dat I'm old coz I really am now. ='( 20 means I can't tell everybody proudly dat " Hey,I'm only a 19yrs old teenager" Oh gosh~frankly speaking,It's really hard 4 me 2accept it right now. But I know time will nvr frozen there, it'll keep moving n moving n running n running. I dun feel like I enjoy my teenage life ish... But when I'm telling ppl dat I'm ady 20yrs old, too old 2be cute. They r like "Hey hey,u r juz a kid lah..." =.=" Again, I have been laughed by dem due to the obvious differences between my actual age n my appearance. Though some of dem nvr express it, I'm ninety nine point nine percent sure dat dey do think de same. Dey r all de same. Making fool of me.. Ppl might wonder y I worry so much about dis? Shouldn't I be happy coz I have been gifted a baby face. But u r all wrong!!! U r not me n u'll nvr understand my inner feelings. Haih...btw,I have 2cheer up. Welcome 20!!!! I've so much 2fight for my future. Fighting!!!

To be continued~

Hollow~

Ain is going 2tk 2 days off. Dat means I might get bored without her... ='( Btw,Aunt Ivy took flight 2 sabah dis morning since her pa hv passed away. She left Pierre here for about 8days. He's oways been a good boy juz a bit naughtier n hyperactive. But I think most of de boys r de same. We really hv 2 look after him very well... When I get back from work juz nw he cried when mummy left him. N his face was pale n no crying voice come out at all. Suddenly his small face turn black n he nearly fainted. Oh,dat's juz too scary! His lip n face were black all in a sudden. Pappy blamed us for letting him cry since he has thalassemia. Haihz...I'm shocked too. Well, I'm gonna stop here~ Pierre, u muz stay healthy n fit. *pray*

Myth

Sorry for abandon u for so long Stitch paradise... I'm fine recently. Juz kind of busy & tired when I get back from works. Da jie n er jie came back 3days ago but I juz spend very poor little time with dem due to my part-time job. I only c dem not more than 5hrs. Haihz...Whenever I'm free dey r not. N finally dey went back to their places n left me here. No choice, once u've stepped into de career path u'll hardly clear out some time 2gether wit ur family. 2 days dey stay at home n I only able 2tk 2 meals with dem. Then dey went back again... 2day is my offday but I feel so lonely. Trying 2let those errands occupied my heart so I wont feel depressed. Started 2worry about my studies. I'm worried I can't do it well, I'm scared I can't cope with all de coming pressures. Sometimes I even having insomnia bcoz of thinking too much... I guess I've changed. Changed into a person dat I dun relly know who izit. I'm not de pessimistic type of gal. But now seems 2be I'm. De older I'm, de more responsibilities I've had.
Love u all, my dearest family~ Luv each one of u. *hugs*