I can't help it.......

I admit~
I am scared to be alone.
I always scared to be alone.
2day I'm alone again.
Roommate went back 2days ago.
A day is long like a year~
Every second is damn hard 2 pass~
Help!
I don't want to be alone~
I'm depressed.
Nobody is at home.
No matter how loud de music is playing,
Or how loud de drama series is playing,
I'm still scared ...
Can somebody talk to me?
It's so quiet now.
I can't help not 2 cry.
I hate crying.
I hate de weak side of myself.
When I listen to her voice n listen to his voice,
My tears still dropping unstoppably.
But I hide it ,
I don't really want them 2 know that I'm weak~
Though I really am ,
And I always are~
Why I'm so coward ?
Why I can't stay alone just for a few days ?
Can somebody tell me why ?
I always telling myself must grow up ,
Can't be too dependent~
But I failed~
I FAILED ...
How 2 cease de feeling of scary ?
How 2 comfort myself dun be depressed ?
How 2 stay a night without anybody talking to me ?
I know I'm not independent.
But I really wanna get rid of dis shortcoming.
I really want to ...
Woke up almost 5 times when I slept.
Sense of security is fading away~
I can't help it.
Can't concentrate in studies at all,
I can't help it.
Trying not 2 disturb anybody,
I can't help it.
I really miss u now~
I can't help it ..............