以下是我死党之一所写的肺腑之言，看了我不禁有感同深受的滋味。。。这篇名为事实的部落写的很写实。 =)


事实~


有时不知道真相比知道完全的真相好，是逃避，也是保护自己的办法。当我回想几个月前发生的事时，没想到，我居然能够如此的平静，能够说的好像在说别人的故事一样。学习了，成长了。周围的人，谁才是那一个可以信任的，我不知道。因为那一个你信任的人，随时，都可以是让你落入万丈深渊的人。伤害的，不仅仅是我而已，而是更多更多似乎不相干的人士。

不要埋怨，不要责备。谁都没有错，而是成长的时间到了。就如我常说的，没有乌云密布，没有倾盆大雨，你岂知道晴朗的美好，岂知道彩虹的美丽？乌云已经散开了，彩虹已经呈现了。阳光虽然耀眼炙热，但我却享受其中。

有些时候，不管你如何解释都于事无补。唯独时间，能够证明一切，唯独时间，能够还你一个清白。历史，不会再重演。因为，我拒绝再让它发生。当我看见一切就快失控的时候，我就会让一切来到终点。在你们都不知道的时候。到时不要问我为什么。为了我想要保护的人，我能够做出一切你们想象不到的事，即使我已伤心欲绝。

曾经和小子们说，长大了，找不到像你们一样的朋友了。周围的人，会背叛你，会重伤你，会耍心机，会利用你。但是，我相信仍然有那么几个，是我真正的朋友。他们是谁，只有我知道，天父，必定也了解。今晚，忽然想起了这一切，虽然感慨，却更感恩。因为我知道当我能够很平静地说出我的故事时，代表我已经康复了。

如果我不能捍卫我们的友情，那么我宁愿选择在我们的感情更深厚之前，放弃。不因为什么，只因为我害怕伤害你。=)


谢谢缓倩小子的文章。 =P
遇到了种种问题，知道该来的总是会来，怨不得人。
从小家里就教育我别太执著去和别人争执，如果别人真的误解了你，
解释再多也徒然。
就这样，反而变成了被别人欺压的借口，
有些人总是有办法让别人相信自己所说的话，
天生的好口才，你怎么说也说不赢。
说服力在这社会真的不容忽视，
就在这一生中所见识到的东西看来，
有些人连死的都能说成是活的，
让群众都信服。。。
我想这样的人真的值得鼓掌。。。
她告诉我，
如果要别人相信你的谎言，
你自己就得相信它是真的。
说真的。。我做不到。。。
睁眼说瞎话，良心真的过的去吗？
可能有些真的觉得没什么吧。
小子们，
说真的，我已经找不到像你们这群知心朋友了，
这让我更加懂得珍惜你们。
你说的对，
谁都没错，只是长大的时间到了。
无论是谁对谁错都已不重要了，
我任然相信做了错事的人是会有自食其果的一天。
就算一辈子都没法让自己懂，
也是自己没福报去看到自己的错来改过罢了。
祝福你们会看到那一天。。
看到自己的错而有机会改过。
我看见了我的。。。
你们呢？
所以请别在不知情的情况下把别人的努力都当作废墟。
时间真的能证明一切，
大家都不小了，
不需在幼稚下去了。
好好珍惜被赐于的头脑，
让自己有冷静的判断力，
不是盲目地信于路人甲的吹嘘说辞，
相信自己的直觉，
作为能好好保护自己的屏章。
人生只有那么一次，
你，好好过了吗？
无常。。无常。。。无常啊。。。

绝望~

怎么我的头脑又不听话？
我想要快点专心读完，
可是怎么那么没办法啊？
救命！
真的没时间了。。。
你是不是想说再见啊？
不是就别在头痛了。。。
帮帮我。。
就快点健健康康~
Focus focus!
别在想那些。。。
加油，
彦子，
你不能让妈咪担心你。。。
记得记得。。。

"Good" Luck?!

This would be a sleepless nite for me.
This time it isn't about studies..
Partly yes,
But... I can't explain the feeling now.
I got so freak out.
It was the first time in my life I've experienced this.
In my own house...
It's too scary...
I still can feel my heartbeats..
It nearly pumps out from my mouth.
It happened when I was studying in my own room with the door open,
Then I saw a shadow walked by the corridor and entered my housemates' room.
By that time I really thought it is amy.
Then I shouted "Amy!"
But Amy's voice came from the dining room.
She replied "What?!"
A silence took place...
Amy still shouted back, "What is happening yen?"
I didn't reply her.
I was too scared...
Coz I knew it, I knew what I saw...
And it's very clear and I'm 99.99% sure that I'm not hallucinating.
T_T


I knew the shadow I saw is somebody else.
Can't help to stay any longer in the room.
I went out and join their group study.
It was freaking!
And creepy...
I have been wondering why most of my friends always longing to see and feel so excited to see those kind of stuff.
This happen to be a weird feeling to me.
Can't put it properly into words.
Just your body will react spontaneously...
Goosebumps came out and ur heart beats like as if it never beats before.
I wish I can tell him.
But now is very important period for him too.
I guess after exam only I'll be honest to him.
Sorry, just dunwan u to be scared of it and affect ur performance.

Sigh!
I stop myself from recalling back the moment I saw it.
But it's too hard...
I will stay alert the whole nite.
>.<
Okay, continue my revision.
Stitch, accompany me pls...
Too spooky.... T_T




From,
petrified yenzi. >.<

The gift of Life is the life itself

T_T
Stitch, I'm here again...
As u know...
I have wasted my day again in my so-called "de-stress"
Why do I call it a de-stress?
Coz I was about to plan n rest a day as I've told u yesterday.
And yea right!
I slept at 1am n I ended up woke up at 10.30am!
Slowly enjoying my breakfast n watching some movies,
Half a day gone..It just gone like it can teleport without I ever realising it.
Damn!
I could have restricted myself not to switch on my lappy..
Once it is there,
I just can't resist.
Just like Amy's famous quote,
I can resist everything... Except TEMPTATION.
Oh Day,
Can u give me one more chance?
Nah, I've been silly again. >.<

Okay,
Escape from reality for a while.
I've gained myself some weight.. 1kg in 2 weeks time.
No choice...
I have a bunch of crazy food scavengers friends!
Whenever hanging out with them,
We never stop eating...
We can have lunch, dinner n dessert all 2gether in 3 hrs time.
Scary huh?!
Nope..I dun think it is for them.
And I think I've been influenced too.
Now I can finish my food myself..which is a pretty good news to dad n mum.
They oways nag me for wasting foods.
Mummy pappy! I'm not de yenzi as before lor. XD
Craving for good n delicious food is my new adapted hobby now.
Woohoo~

Kay, time back to REVISION.
I'm just gonna bear with it for a week,
And I'll be freed! From a living hell.
And back to my Malcolm, Kaka, Beibei...
I miss u all.
Life is too quiet without ur bark.
See u soon for everyone I miss dearly here.


With love,
Yenzi.

A sneak out from REVISION

Stitch,
I have so much to tell~

Finally there is some intervals to rest before starting another hardcore..
Arh...
But I'm only allowed to rest half a day.
Slept like a dead sheep just now. =.=
Stupiak question.
I hate you!
Slept for 2 hours n the consequence is still the same.
Regret for not sleeping longer..
Super headache now.
And environmental chem doesn't seems to be appealing.

The house is all in a mess.
Need to clear out some time to do a thorough cleaning before the house turns into a rubbish dump.
Have a sudden urge to clean every dust n microorganism in the house.
I dun like sticky and dusty house... T_T

By the way, thank u for giving me strength.
U gonna work hard too.
I trust u can do it.
The good luck charm works on me I guess. =)
All the best in ur coming exam.
(p/s : Eat more kay... Dun just know how to nag on me. ) =P

I miss out Halloween.
Saw their photo albums makes me feel like it's a big lost for not going to join the FUN!
I remembered when I was studying in library,
The music strayed my mind off to 4th floor. >.<
It's okay, I can organise a small Halloween nite in my house next time. =P
Theme is "don't try to look scary" Ghost feast XD

Time to sleep again.
Trying to be a polar bear again.. Hibernate! XD
Oyatsumi nasai. Blekk!


Love,
Stitch.