Running mad

Really suffering...
So many lectures to finish.
It's a bit damn too lot!
Can't seem to memorise all of them.
Not even a module..
How i wish i can..
I tried n tried but why still can't store in my permanent memory?
Do i still have time?
Arh!
Microb memorising...
Pharm analysis memorising...
Natural product memorising...
Drug metabolism, pharmaceutics, envt. chem everything..
Sigh!
T_T

当你在乎一个人的时候，你会经常的有事没事地去查看他的Facebook上的资料，甚至能背得滚瓜烂熟；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会想方设法的从侧面去关注他的一切，包括他的生活和他网上的踪迹；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会在上MSN时只要听见有人上线的声音就会马上看看是不是他，否则会坐立不安；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会在看见他的MSN上线以后马上让自己的MSN也亮起来，即使你习惯隐身；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会为他退去你头像的光亮，即便此时你正光芒四射为众星所捧；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会喜欢上听她所喜欢听的歌，学着玩他喜欢的游戏，那种快乐远远大于游戏本身；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会把生活中一点点小事都告诉他，即使是没有什么意义和价值；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会有意无意的去帮助他，希望他比你好却不想让他知道；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会在你拿不定主意的时候去寻求他的意见，然后像听圣旨一样的听从；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会时不时的在他面前耍些小性子然后再等他来哄你，即使平时的你从不耍小性子；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会在他没有表现得很在乎你的时候感到郁闷甚至生气，虽然你知道你们还只是一般的朋友；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会原谅他所做的一切事情，即使是你最不能容忍和曾经发过誓的；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会因为他无意中对你的好而感到无比的甜蜜，甚至可以让你开心好几天；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会对他的一切都很感兴趣，即使是他写错的字都会铭记不忘；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会发觉自己的某些习惯已经慢慢地变得向他的某些习惯靠拢了，而这变化并不是你故意的；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会很喜欢跟他在一起的感觉，不管是单独还是和很多人一起，只要有他在就很满足；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会在他误会你的时候或者认为你不好的时候，感到世界顿时失去光明，心情也灰灰的；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会在登上自己空间的第一时间查看有没有他来过的痕迹，如果有留言那更是开心无比；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会不舍得删掉他给你的任何留言，你会时不时拿出来回味一下，自我陶醉一番；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会对他所要你帮的任何忙都充满了热情地去做，并且总希望自己做得最好；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会对他的一些“无理”要求都欣然地接受，而不去管那需要什么代价。

为什么人总是要相信一人的片面之词呢？
为什么在乎的人反而你越要去伤害她呢？
为什么人与人之间就不能完全互相信任呢？
老天~
你真的忍心让我们生病吗？
你真的不要我们了吗？

Nowhere for me to shout.
Can I shout here?
ARH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Again.. ARH!!!!!!!!!!!!
Very very stressful.
Never ending works.
Panting for breath almost everyday.
How long can I survive?
I really have no idea.
Tonnes of works...
Pls...can my brain works more efficient?
I really have not much time left...
*crying*

Sienzation again...

Stitch!
A good news and a bad news for u.
Just wanna tell the world I'd finish my report!
Hahaha...
Sorry for my stupendous, but i'm really happy with that.

Bad news.... I'm having backache again.
I hate de weather.
Sudden change of weather..arh!!!
Went out to spend $$ again but it's for my food storage.
U can never believe I bought so many milks.
Bought myself a bottle of fish oil as well.
But I can hardly swallow de bigger one.
Having phobia to swallow any tablets or capsules.
Mummy! Why did u deliver such a useless daughter?
Arh... x 2
It's okay.
Doctor asked me to swallow candy daily so that I can cure this phobia.

Recently i'm facing another problem.
But i'm not in it.
So, I really hope u both will be okay.
Everything can be solved kay?
God blessed and all the best to u. =D

Tomorrow is my contemporary class again.
Gosh, I'm so happy! Hehe...
The only moment I can enjoy without having to worry anything is dance!
But my bones are stiff,
The stretching really took my life. XD
Well well...time to gotong-royong.
Buh bye, Stitch~ Muaccks... ^^

*hugss*

Due to my boredom yesterday staying at home the whole day without even stepping out from my door, I decided to go out to satisfy myself haha.
Texting a few friends to find some companions but they were all occupied.
Finally, a message replied and told me she gonna go somewhere instead.
But then I succeeded in persuading her to go Sunway Pyramid with me.
The first step I took in the entrance, I saw IMU students were sitting at starbuck there. Oh gosh, can I just get rid of those IMU-related stuff n people?
Anyway, we went Sushi Zanmai hehe.
My beloved n favourite japanese foods.
We really ate alot n I can't believe I can eat that much either.
But it's de most enjoyable day for me since I've never talk to Karen after few months we have separated.
A very spontaneous plan came after that.
We went for movie with pilip n amy later.
Expendable!
A good movie but it's kinda violent I should admit that.
18 PL gals~ XD
Nah nah nah...
It's already 11.30pm when de movie came to an end.
We took a cab back to vista.
After taking a nice, hot shower I went to bed.
Regreting for not doing report before going out.
By de way, I miss u!
I'll always be there whenever u need me. Promise! :D

I admit,
I'm a person who scared of loneliness.
But the more scare I am,
It comes to me more often.
Now,
I'm at home again.
Keep saying goodbye to my friends.
Some went for a nice movie,
Some went swimming,
Some went back hometown.
I'm all alone.
='(
I force myself to sit down n start to revise chromatography.
But my mind strayed to somewhere else.
I miss my friends..
Miss u guys badly.... T_T
Stress stress stress.
Don't really feel like studying.
When I dance de notes are there waiting for me,
So I sit down again.
When I sing de notes is waving at me,
So I'm gonna concentrate again.
Jiu Ming ar...
Can I swallow all my notes?!
Scared of the coming test n de unknown future.
Nah,
People will say I think too much again. ='(
But but... I tend to think more when I'm alone ar.
Can't help it. >.<
Okay... loneliness don't come to me again pls..
I want a Stitch!
So that I can hug him when I'm alone. T_T
Arh..don't know what crap I'm talking about now.
Should go study then.
Buh bye...
..................



By,
Lonely Yen.