真相

真相？
我比你更想知道。。。
别以为看见的是这样就真的是这样。
告诉你，
我已经被弄糊涂了。。。
还是那句，
我只相信自己的直觉，
谁要说什么随你们吧。。。
我不会有任何意见，
说完了就请走，
别再来打扰我的生活。
我真的不需要这样的朋友。
真的是朋友吗？
认识了太多太多假惺惺的人，
已经麻木了。

It's gonna end

Speaking of holidays..
Yea... true.
I enjoy myself very much.
Without doing anything useful,
I still can feel the joy of it.
Hanging around with frenz.
Family, relatives...
Longing to see them,
Miss them when they are gone.
What a life!
Filled with emotion.
That's human i guess.
My pandora box is much more complicated than I've doubted.
Never had I thought I can get through these real fast.
Haha... thanks wei. =)
Feeling sad at the same time...
After checking PBL grouping of sem4.
Curious that somehow de class has reduced again.
Can't recall who is not in...
Finally a knife just stabbed me.
Sigh!
I dun wanna lose anybody...
Do hope we can stay together n get the certificate on the same day..
No matter what..
This is just my little wish.
My little faith is telling me kept holding what is true n justice.
I won't give up.
Won't betray myself to fall into the valley of sin again.. Never.

Sem 3 has come to an end.
A real ENDing...
No more books for me to kill off my time in holidays..
No more music, dance n opera...
Kind of down...
But I'll keep going.
Keep holding my passion in what i really wanna do. =)

p/s : I miss u, xiaozi men... =D

Tomorrow is always exciting!

There it goes!
Congratulation to ah boon n huanqian for passing ur exam!
Hooray everyone...
And so far my s'pore trip has come to an end.
Again, at Johor...
I have no idea what my life will ever leads to.
Hope that boredom doesn't manify itself.
As I hate to stay at home alone, reading novel n doing nothing else.
Hiking? Where to go?
I love hiking, jungle trekking but there is oways no companion to go.
Some friends of mine like to shopping.
Some are super duper hyperactive but I'm not the type.
I guess I'm moderate.. Not too sporty nor homebody.
Arh!
What to do then...
Ehm ehm ehm...
Okay, so far I will just helping dad n mom do their stuff in dis week.
Interesting plan HERE I COME! =D

以下是我死党之一所写的肺腑之言，看了我不禁有感同深受的滋味。。。这篇名为事实的部落写的很写实。 =)


事实~


有时不知道真相比知道完全的真相好，是逃避，也是保护自己的办法。当我回想几个月前发生的事时，没想到，我居然能够如此的平静，能够说的好像在说别人的故事一样。学习了，成长了。周围的人，谁才是那一个可以信任的，我不知道。因为那一个你信任的人，随时，都可以是让你落入万丈深渊的人。伤害的，不仅仅是我而已，而是更多更多似乎不相干的人士。

不要埋怨，不要责备。谁都没有错，而是成长的时间到了。就如我常说的，没有乌云密布，没有倾盆大雨，你岂知道晴朗的美好，岂知道彩虹的美丽？乌云已经散开了，彩虹已经呈现了。阳光虽然耀眼炙热，但我却享受其中。

有些时候，不管你如何解释都于事无补。唯独时间，能够证明一切，唯独时间，能够还你一个清白。历史，不会再重演。因为，我拒绝再让它发生。当我看见一切就快失控的时候，我就会让一切来到终点。在你们都不知道的时候。到时不要问我为什么。为了我想要保护的人，我能够做出一切你们想象不到的事，即使我已伤心欲绝。

曾经和小子们说，长大了，找不到像你们一样的朋友了。周围的人，会背叛你，会重伤你，会耍心机，会利用你。但是，我相信仍然有那么几个，是我真正的朋友。他们是谁，只有我知道，天父，必定也了解。今晚，忽然想起了这一切，虽然感慨，却更感恩。因为我知道当我能够很平静地说出我的故事时，代表我已经康复了。

如果我不能捍卫我们的友情，那么我宁愿选择在我们的感情更深厚之前，放弃。不因为什么，只因为我害怕伤害你。=)


谢谢缓倩小子的文章。 =P
遇到了种种问题，知道该来的总是会来，怨不得人。
从小家里就教育我别太执著去和别人争执，如果别人真的误解了你，
解释再多也徒然。
就这样，反而变成了被别人欺压的借口，
有些人总是有办法让别人相信自己所说的话，
天生的好口才，你怎么说也说不赢。
说服力在这社会真的不容忽视，
就在这一生中所见识到的东西看来，
有些人连死的都能说成是活的，
让群众都信服。。。
我想这样的人真的值得鼓掌。。。
她告诉我，
如果要别人相信你的谎言，
你自己就得相信它是真的。
说真的。。我做不到。。。
睁眼说瞎话，良心真的过的去吗？
可能有些真的觉得没什么吧。
小子们，
说真的，我已经找不到像你们这群知心朋友了，
这让我更加懂得珍惜你们。
你说的对，
谁都没错，只是长大的时间到了。
无论是谁对谁错都已不重要了，
我任然相信做了错事的人是会有自食其果的一天。
就算一辈子都没法让自己懂，
也是自己没福报去看到自己的错来改过罢了。
祝福你们会看到那一天。。
看到自己的错而有机会改过。
我看见了我的。。。
你们呢？
所以请别在不知情的情况下把别人的努力都当作废墟。
时间真的能证明一切，
大家都不小了，
不需在幼稚下去了。
好好珍惜被赐于的头脑，
让自己有冷静的判断力，
不是盲目地信于路人甲的吹嘘说辞，
相信自己的直觉，
作为能好好保护自己的屏章。
人生只有那么一次，
你，好好过了吗？
无常。。无常。。。无常啊。。。

绝望~

怎么我的头脑又不听话？
我想要快点专心读完，
可是怎么那么没办法啊？
救命！
真的没时间了。。。
你是不是想说再见啊？
不是就别在头痛了。。。
帮帮我。。
就快点健健康康~
Focus focus!
别在想那些。。。
加油，
彦子，
你不能让妈咪担心你。。。
记得记得。。。

"Good" Luck?!

This would be a sleepless nite for me.
This time it isn't about studies..
Partly yes,
But... I can't explain the feeling now.
I got so freak out.
It was the first time in my life I've experienced this.
In my own house...
It's too scary...
I still can feel my heartbeats..
It nearly pumps out from my mouth.
It happened when I was studying in my own room with the door open,
Then I saw a shadow walked by the corridor and entered my housemates' room.
By that time I really thought it is amy.
Then I shouted "Amy!"
But Amy's voice came from the dining room.
She replied "What?!"
A silence took place...
Amy still shouted back, "What is happening yen?"
I didn't reply her.
I was too scared...
Coz I knew it, I knew what I saw...
And it's very clear and I'm 99.99% sure that I'm not hallucinating.
T_T


I knew the shadow I saw is somebody else.
Can't help to stay any longer in the room.
I went out and join their group study.
It was freaking!
And creepy...
I have been wondering why most of my friends always longing to see and feel so excited to see those kind of stuff.
This happen to be a weird feeling to me.
Can't put it properly into words.
Just your body will react spontaneously...
Goosebumps came out and ur heart beats like as if it never beats before.
I wish I can tell him.
But now is very important period for him too.
I guess after exam only I'll be honest to him.
Sorry, just dunwan u to be scared of it and affect ur performance.

Sigh!
I stop myself from recalling back the moment I saw it.
But it's too hard...
I will stay alert the whole nite.
>.<
Okay, continue my revision.
Stitch, accompany me pls...
Too spooky.... T_T




From,
petrified yenzi. >.<

The gift of Life is the life itself

T_T
Stitch, I'm here again...
As u know...
I have wasted my day again in my so-called "de-stress"
Why do I call it a de-stress?
Coz I was about to plan n rest a day as I've told u yesterday.
And yea right!
I slept at 1am n I ended up woke up at 10.30am!
Slowly enjoying my breakfast n watching some movies,
Half a day gone..It just gone like it can teleport without I ever realising it.
Damn!
I could have restricted myself not to switch on my lappy..
Once it is there,
I just can't resist.
Just like Amy's famous quote,
I can resist everything... Except TEMPTATION.
Oh Day,
Can u give me one more chance?
Nah, I've been silly again. >.<

Okay,
Escape from reality for a while.
I've gained myself some weight.. 1kg in 2 weeks time.
No choice...
I have a bunch of crazy food scavengers friends!
Whenever hanging out with them,
We never stop eating...
We can have lunch, dinner n dessert all 2gether in 3 hrs time.
Scary huh?!
Nope..I dun think it is for them.
And I think I've been influenced too.
Now I can finish my food myself..which is a pretty good news to dad n mum.
They oways nag me for wasting foods.
Mummy pappy! I'm not de yenzi as before lor. XD
Craving for good n delicious food is my new adapted hobby now.
Woohoo~

Kay, time back to REVISION.
I'm just gonna bear with it for a week,
And I'll be freed! From a living hell.
And back to my Malcolm, Kaka, Beibei...
I miss u all.
Life is too quiet without ur bark.
See u soon for everyone I miss dearly here.


With love,
Yenzi.

A sneak out from REVISION

Stitch,
I have so much to tell~

Finally there is some intervals to rest before starting another hardcore..
Arh...
But I'm only allowed to rest half a day.
Slept like a dead sheep just now. =.=
Stupiak question.
I hate you!
Slept for 2 hours n the consequence is still the same.
Regret for not sleeping longer..
Super headache now.
And environmental chem doesn't seems to be appealing.

The house is all in a mess.
Need to clear out some time to do a thorough cleaning before the house turns into a rubbish dump.
Have a sudden urge to clean every dust n microorganism in the house.
I dun like sticky and dusty house... T_T

By the way, thank u for giving me strength.
U gonna work hard too.
I trust u can do it.
The good luck charm works on me I guess. =)
All the best in ur coming exam.
(p/s : Eat more kay... Dun just know how to nag on me. ) =P

I miss out Halloween.
Saw their photo albums makes me feel like it's a big lost for not going to join the FUN!
I remembered when I was studying in library,
The music strayed my mind off to 4th floor. >.<
It's okay, I can organise a small Halloween nite in my house next time. =P
Theme is "don't try to look scary" Ghost feast XD

Time to sleep again.
Trying to be a polar bear again.. Hibernate! XD
Oyatsumi nasai. Blekk!


Love,
Stitch.

Running mad

Really suffering...
So many lectures to finish.
It's a bit damn too lot!
Can't seem to memorise all of them.
Not even a module..
How i wish i can..
I tried n tried but why still can't store in my permanent memory?
Do i still have time?
Arh!
Microb memorising...
Pharm analysis memorising...
Natural product memorising...
Drug metabolism, pharmaceutics, envt. chem everything..
Sigh!
T_T

当你在乎一个人的时候，你会经常的有事没事地去查看他的Facebook上的资料，甚至能背得滚瓜烂熟；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会想方设法的从侧面去关注他的一切，包括他的生活和他网上的踪迹；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会在上MSN时只要听见有人上线的声音就会马上看看是不是他，否则会坐立不安；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会在看见他的MSN上线以后马上让自己的MSN也亮起来，即使你习惯隐身；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会为他退去你头像的光亮，即便此时你正光芒四射为众星所捧；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会喜欢上听她所喜欢听的歌，学着玩他喜欢的游戏，那种快乐远远大于游戏本身；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会把生活中一点点小事都告诉他，即使是没有什么意义和价值；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会有意无意的去帮助他，希望他比你好却不想让他知道；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会在你拿不定主意的时候去寻求他的意见，然后像听圣旨一样的听从；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会时不时的在他面前耍些小性子然后再等他来哄你，即使平时的你从不耍小性子；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会在他没有表现得很在乎你的时候感到郁闷甚至生气，虽然你知道你们还只是一般的朋友；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会原谅他所做的一切事情，即使是你最不能容忍和曾经发过誓的；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会因为他无意中对你的好而感到无比的甜蜜，甚至可以让你开心好几天；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会对他的一切都很感兴趣，即使是他写错的字都会铭记不忘；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会发觉自己的某些习惯已经慢慢地变得向他的某些习惯靠拢了，而这变化并不是你故意的；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会很喜欢跟他在一起的感觉，不管是单独还是和很多人一起，只要有他在就很满足；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会在他误会你的时候或者认为你不好的时候，感到世界顿时失去光明，心情也灰灰的；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会在登上自己空间的第一时间查看有没有他来过的痕迹，如果有留言那更是开心无比；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会不舍得删掉他给你的任何留言，你会时不时拿出来回味一下，自我陶醉一番；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会对他所要你帮的任何忙都充满了热情地去做，并且总希望自己做得最好；
当你在乎一个人的时候，你会对他的一些“无理”要求都欣然地接受，而不去管那需要什么代价。

为什么人总是要相信一人的片面之词呢？
为什么在乎的人反而你越要去伤害她呢？
为什么人与人之间就不能完全互相信任呢？
老天~
你真的忍心让我们生病吗？
你真的不要我们了吗？

Nowhere for me to shout.
Can I shout here?
ARH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Again.. ARH!!!!!!!!!!!!
Very very stressful.
Never ending works.
Panting for breath almost everyday.
How long can I survive?
I really have no idea.
Tonnes of works...
Pls...can my brain works more efficient?
I really have not much time left...
*crying*

Sienzation again...

Stitch!
A good news and a bad news for u.
Just wanna tell the world I'd finish my report!
Hahaha...
Sorry for my stupendous, but i'm really happy with that.

Bad news.... I'm having backache again.
I hate de weather.
Sudden change of weather..arh!!!
Went out to spend $$ again but it's for my food storage.
U can never believe I bought so many milks.
Bought myself a bottle of fish oil as well.
But I can hardly swallow de bigger one.
Having phobia to swallow any tablets or capsules.
Mummy! Why did u deliver such a useless daughter?
Arh... x 2
It's okay.
Doctor asked me to swallow candy daily so that I can cure this phobia.

Recently i'm facing another problem.
But i'm not in it.
So, I really hope u both will be okay.
Everything can be solved kay?
God blessed and all the best to u. =D

Tomorrow is my contemporary class again.
Gosh, I'm so happy! Hehe...
The only moment I can enjoy without having to worry anything is dance!
But my bones are stiff,
The stretching really took my life. XD
Well well...time to gotong-royong.
Buh bye, Stitch~ Muaccks... ^^

*hugss*

Due to my boredom yesterday staying at home the whole day without even stepping out from my door, I decided to go out to satisfy myself haha.
Texting a few friends to find some companions but they were all occupied.
Finally, a message replied and told me she gonna go somewhere instead.
But then I succeeded in persuading her to go Sunway Pyramid with me.
The first step I took in the entrance, I saw IMU students were sitting at starbuck there. Oh gosh, can I just get rid of those IMU-related stuff n people?
Anyway, we went Sushi Zanmai hehe.
My beloved n favourite japanese foods.
We really ate alot n I can't believe I can eat that much either.
But it's de most enjoyable day for me since I've never talk to Karen after few months we have separated.
A very spontaneous plan came after that.
We went for movie with pilip n amy later.
Expendable!
A good movie but it's kinda violent I should admit that.
18 PL gals~ XD
Nah nah nah...
It's already 11.30pm when de movie came to an end.
We took a cab back to vista.
After taking a nice, hot shower I went to bed.
Regreting for not doing report before going out.
By de way, I miss u!
I'll always be there whenever u need me. Promise! :D

I admit,
I'm a person who scared of loneliness.
But the more scare I am,
It comes to me more often.
Now,
I'm at home again.
Keep saying goodbye to my friends.
Some went for a nice movie,
Some went swimming,
Some went back hometown.
I'm all alone.
='(
I force myself to sit down n start to revise chromatography.
But my mind strayed to somewhere else.
I miss my friends..
Miss u guys badly.... T_T
Stress stress stress.
Don't really feel like studying.
When I dance de notes are there waiting for me,
So I sit down again.
When I sing de notes is waving at me,
So I'm gonna concentrate again.
Jiu Ming ar...
Can I swallow all my notes?!
Scared of the coming test n de unknown future.
Nah,
People will say I think too much again. ='(
But but... I tend to think more when I'm alone ar.
Can't help it. >.<
Okay... loneliness don't come to me again pls..
I want a Stitch!
So that I can hug him when I'm alone. T_T
Arh..don't know what crap I'm talking about now.
Should go study then.
Buh bye...
..................



By,
Lonely Yen.

我是笨蛋。
很难过。。。

Your past is only working to remind you
how far you have come,
not how many mistakes you have made.

Everything will fade through time..
I want to believe that.
I don't expect anyone to understand how hurtful can that be to hurt someone u don't know them well enough.
I don't have to explain.
I can't control what others wanna think about me.
I won't let the bad thoughts follow me to the grave.
I'm learning to accept and don't take it in mind.
It doesn't mean I'm wrong.
It's just that I want no argument.
I want to maintain what I've found in friendship.
But somehow mankind made me disappointed.
I make no regret.
At least I'm learning another issue.
Another new chapter in my life.
Till the day I will say...
"Do u know that friendship is as fragile as glass? "
It breaks once it falls.
I can't reverse the falling,
The falling doesn't caused by me.
But I'm responsible for it.
Being drag into the bottomless pit.
Trapping inside.
Because I want no war.
It's alrite to keep staying quiet without making clarification anymore.
Like I said,
Take it as a life long learning.
I might face this maybe thousand times in the near future.
Take it as a training.
Pray for all.
We are all learning to respect each other and how not to hurt others.
May U makes us see clearer and don't keep falling into the valley of sin,
May U makes us treasure the important things in life before we lost it.
May U grant me a wider heart to accept every hurts and sorrow.
May U keep prejudice, selfishness, disloyalty etc back into Pandora box.
May U makes everyone understand the meaning of love and have faith in it.
May U makes every child be filial to their parents, every friends care for each other, no hatred between individual, no ill-speaking,backstabbing, physical abuse, the everlasting true love between couples, kindness and gentle of human, sacrifices for the good.
Remain the good soul in human~
I know human are incomplete,
I know I've demand too much.
I know that is not going to happen.
But that is just in my dreamland.
Once I wake up,
The ugly world is still there.
It's only me myself to make sure I'm not running wild with the world.
People, remember that..
You are responsible for urself.
Never blame the world because it is you who cause it to fall seriously ill.

God blessed~

当我老了

当我老了，
不再是原来的我，
请理解我，
对我有一点耐心。

当我把菜汤泼到自己衣服时，
当我忘记怎样系鞋带时，
该想一想当初我是如何手把手地教你。

当我一遍又一遍地重复着你已听腻的话时，
请耐心地听我说，
不要打断我。
还记得你小时候，
我不得不重复那说过千百遍的故事，
直到你进入梦乡。

当我需要你帮我洗澡时，
请不要责备我，
还记得小时候我千方百计地哄你洗澡的情形吗？

当我对新事物新科技不知所措时，
请不要嘲笑我，
想一想当初我怎样耐心的地回答你的每一个“为什么”。

当我由于双脚疲劳而无法行走时，
请伸出你年轻有力的手来搀扶我，
就像你小时候学习走路时，
我扶你那样。

当我忽然忘记我们谈话的主题时，
请给我一些时间让我回想，
其实对我来说，
谈论什么并不重要，
只要你能在一旁听我说，
我就很满足。

当你看着老去的我，
请不要悲伤。
理解我，支持我，
就像你开始学习如何生活时我对你那样。
当初我引导你走上人生的路，
如今请陪伴我走完最后的路。
给我你的爱和耐心，
我会报以感激的微笑。
这微笑中凝结着我对你无限的爱。


读了这篇文章后，我真的很心酸。。
他们的心声，
老豆，妈咪，阿嫲，
我不会抛弃你们，
我爱你们。
无论现今的社会已经病到什么地步了，
我还是希望每个人都珍惜所拥有的人、事、物~
别再让世界病下去了。
珍惜所爱，别再恨，别再怨，
别再病下去了。。。
我应该还继续相信人间有爱吗？

Kick start a new day.
Wow~
Few days doing nothing and a lot of things at the same time.
If playing takes into account then I'm indeed extremely busy. =p
Again...
The feeling of I've never been making use of my long holidays show up themselves.
Why?!
All the blame is pointed to myself.
1st, I'm too concentrating into my emo state before that.
2nd, I started to rekindle my spirit of playing games back.
That is just few days ago... And I'm regret. ( kek sei >.< )
3rd, be a babysitter is not that bad sometimes. =x
At least improve my patience once again.. haha.
Don't think that babysitting is really that fun and easy,
That will be a big No-no.
Besides patience, sense of humour is crucial too. Haha..
They will turn you off when they find that you are not funny enough.
Especially those evil kids these times.
Wonder why even kids transform into more different style through evolution.
Pappy said It's all due to the milk-powder.
Then different formulation should be proposed. Ehem...
Or else worst thing is gonna happen. Seriously..
Not I'm thinking too much.
Every kids I saw is exactly the same super smart and "evil" if you would like to call that.
Even my cousin... =p
2 weeks facing and dealing with kids really drives me mad.
I admit I don't really have a good patience in children.
But the tolerance level is still up to satisfactory.
Sometimes I wish I can just pinch their face when they are naughty,
But I can't...
And again, they are running wilder.. =.="
See!
Corporal punishment is not the right choice but sometimes it has its advantage.
Not saying that you must wield the cane and spoon out punishment,
Just a way that is good enough to scare them. Haha...
Wanna get kids like you truthfully?
Better get more training then.

如果你的微笑得不到回应，
不要紧。
如果你的礼敬换来了无礼，
不要紧。
如果你帮助别人却不被接受，
不要紧。
如果你的信任换来了背叛，
不要紧。
如果他人不愿回馈你的善行，
不要紧。
如果真的做到了，
你就走在“德” 的大道之上。
你的怨言，失望和受伤，
都源自于你自己的私心。
无所求地持续。。再持续地在这条大道上迈步~
那么这条大道就会成为“道” 之路。

Silence

Silence ...
For a good reason.
For a better thinking.
For a clearer mind.
For the unnecessary.
For the hurts.
For a thousand reasons..
The universe.

Soaking into deep thoughts.
Neither good nor bad.
Just think~
And decide the right path.
No confusion.
Decide once for all.
No more sensitivity.
Just keep an eye close.
Keep believing your instinct.
Make no doubt for that.
Use it as a self-defense.
Accept what is done.
Make no regret for that.
Have faith in all,
Even though they've made you lost the trust.
Keep believing and trust no matter what.
Once trust has lost,
No more hope can behold.
Dreadful life engulfed.

Life!
I respect U.
I'm belongs to U.
I don't regret,
And never will.
I'll keep going and going.
Learning and listening to what is necessary.
Keep bad thoughts away from me.
No matter what is true or fake,
Just listen to my heart.
U are challenging yet fragile.
I'll make a stand point.
I won't being slaughtered by the unscrupulous one.
U conquer no one.
We all have faith.

有时真的很无奈。。。
真的。。
活的好累。
做什么事都要被别人拿来说。
没那个意思经过了人群绕了一圈，
加了种种人的看法，
自己就被判死刑，
可有谁知道你们自己的看法是不是有不稳合的成分呢？
没有。。。
有时真的为这莫名其妙的世界感到可悲。
每个人都希望别人能了解你。
可是总是轻易相信别人的悠悠之口。
一下定论就以为事实正是如此。
上帝赐了一个那么珍贵的脑，
真的是让我们对事情要有正确的判断思维？
可是反而造成了种种的问题。
我怀疑。。。
怎么人都糟蹋了它。
可能人生来就是身存自我优越感吧，
都深信自己的判断，
往往觉得自己是好的是对的，
不经意就把自己对别人的看法直接套用在对方身上，
照着自己觉得“他就是这样的人的啊 ”的方式去对待他们，
连伤害造成了还浑然不知。
还洋洋得意地觉得他就是这样的啊。。。
人真的就是会伤害别人吗？
以身具来的本性真的如此吗？
反而羡慕起动物了，
没有对错。
看了很多。。。很多。
不知道自己哪一天会对别人失望，
知道那个存在的成分慢慢累积，
我知道有一天自己会不再对别人抱有期望，
不再觉得别人应该会明白你处事的意义，
不再理别人怎么看你，
在自己彻底死心的时候，
无论谁对你说了什么话都是“无”和 “空 ”。
跌倒了都知道痛，
谁还会继续困在别人的看法纠缠里呢？
必竟当别人那么想你的时候证明了他们自己就是那样的人格，
所以才会把别人都归类在框框里。
证明了人就喜欢帮别人设计人格。
依照自己的方式去画画，
看见了一个画面一件事情就拿起画笔继续作画，
从来不会想去了解更多，
看得更阔。
没有。。。
本以为爱你的人是不会误解你，数落你，
可是原来一切都从根本开始，
事实真相反，
他/她也会误解，
而且好严重。
因为他/她不够了解。。。
心痛了，
浑然间才知道原来他是最不了解你的人。
他把你说的好坏，
把自己的解读方式传递，
让大家也误解了。
盲目的爱啊。。。我不会再眷恋你。
我累。。。我累。。。我累了。
我心已死。。。。。。。。。。。。

感激一直以来所有我认识的朋友，
谢谢所有的包容，疼爱与伤害。
谢谢你们让我成长与磨练。
家人永远不会那么伤害你，
珍惜身边人吧~

下一站，坚强~

心情真的好像风，
随它来去自如。。。
心里闷了好久。。
感觉都活在另一个空间，
不知道该怎么和人沟通。
最近都好喘，
心里好闷，
好想不再是自己，
好想记忆消失。。。
每天醒来好希望自己又能再度呼吸顺畅。
大声地笑着对自己说：
我今天又长大了，
别在沦陷在过去。

姐，别担心我。。
我会好好的。。。
咪，别担心我。
我不会让脆弱打败。
给我一些时间，
我会站在你们笑着对你们说：
我好了，我过的好快乐！
其实我都懂，
我知道~
坚强曾经是我的朋友，
可是现在它很遥远。。。
我觉得好吃力，
一直追，一直寻找。。。
我知道我总有一天能找到你。

眼泪别在找我了，
我不适合你。
擦干了你就走吧~
我不想你再黏着我。。
我不再伤心，
我不会堕落。。。
再见了~
一切一切我都送走。。。
不再回忆~

01012010~

2010 Resolution~

Well, 2009 has finally come to an end.
Why I use finally instead of other words?
It's not bcoz 2009 is not a gud fortune year 4 me.
I'm ready heading 2 a better future.
A year with a new me~
Sayonara, 2009.
No matter how sad I am,
I will send u away.
Bye...

As usual ,
New year signify a new beginning.
I must set up some new year resolution,
No matter I can achieve it or not.

Ehem ehem!

What I should maintain :

1. Believe what i can do.
2. Treat everyone as family.
3. Be optimistic.
4. Stay as simple as I can.
5. Unconditional loves to family.
6. Loves Stitch =p
7. Happy-Go-Lucky
8. Never expect too much from others.
9. Stay as low profile as possible.

What I must do :

1. Study from de 1st day of semester 2.
2. Make sure i can finish every assignment on de day itself.
3. Never prolong works.
4. Never complain workload, just do it with my very best.
5. Stay healthy n fit everyday by taking nutritious foods n regular exercise.
6. Believe in miracles.
7. See things in a broad n positive way.
8. Be brave.
9. Able to sleep alone with de lamp off.
10. Categorised n do things according to its priority.

Well well well.. I guess dat's more 2be done. Wishing my family n frenz a meaningful year ahead.

Dun worry, be happy~ =)

All these are my meals during dis prolong holidays~
Some are mom's home cooking, some are unhealthy foods. =p
Bad new is I've gain 0.5kg. =.=

Christmas~

My christmas dis year is family bbq grill n steamboat.
Family gathering~
Merry X'mas everybody! =)
hope u guys enjoy de day~

Simple day after all~ Cheers! ^^